Brodie is home! Last night T, Sheaye, Amy, Cassie, Stacey, April and I went to Brodies house and we just spoke alot of shit in her bedroom. I felt WHOLE. Even though we were all yelling over each other to talk.
Even more, Mum gets home from hospital tomorrow! Her surgery was today and she was kickin' when I went to see her this evening! Trying to throw as much positive energy out into the universe as a sign of my gratitude.
I'd had a terrible night sleep, was feeling down in the dumps about mums hospitalisation, had to work all day today, got lost on 6 different occassions today, had under $5 to my name, got jipped by a homeless man, walked an HOUR through cold evening Southbank then had a revelation: I was OK and everything was going to BE ok. It hit me this morning as I trudged lost and disoriented through West End that in particularly shit circumstances I was totally fine. I've decided to apply that to every day living. As long as I have my head and heart, everything is going to be a-ok. & it is.
Met the most amazing, amazing guy today. He told me I was mesmerizing and a ray of sunshine and hope. Which would of sounded lame if he hadn't been one of the most sincered and chilled people ever. He gave me a drawing thing that simply said NEVERTHELESS and had coloured crayon around it. I've never thought about what a great word nevertheless is. Have come to the conclusion it is. On the back was written "love." So: Nevertheless, love.
I also now have an 80 year old Italion boyfriend and two 80 year old Greek boyfriends. God, I love West End.
My brain is exloding.
So I'm going to get some much needed sleep.
I have lots more ranting to do, I had alot of time as I navigated my way through Brisbane to think philosophically so: expect big updates.
"Everything is happening because it is supposed or, the universe is unfolding as it should."
This mantra is really hitting me in the core atm, I love it and I truly believe it.
LOVE AND SUNSHINE AND HAPPINESS AND CONTENTEDNESS
Jackiexxxxxxxxx
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